Tuesday, May 15, 2018

Willow Smith reveals she cuts herself in depression, as mum Jada Pinkett reveal her struggles over 2pac's death and family drama.

In the latest episode of their show Red Table Talk where three generations of women sit to talk about various aspects of their life, Jada Pinkett Smith and her daughter willow revealed painful experiences they had in the past.

Jada, her, mum and daughter sat down to discuss loss and how they handled it. 

Willow Smith who had a successful career as a 10 year old girl back in 2010 said to her mum and grandma that all was not beautiful despite her success. According to her;

"I honestly feel like I lost my sanity at one point. It was after that whole 'Whip My Hair' thing and and I had just stopped doing singing lessons and I was kind of just in this gray area of, 'Who am I? Do I have a purpose? Is there anything I can do besides this?'" she explained. "After the tour, the promotion and all that, they wanted me to finish my album and I was like, I'm not going to do that."
"After all of that kinda settled down and it was like a kind of lull, I was just listening to a lot of dark music. It was just so crazy and I was plunged into this black hole, and I was cutting myself," she continued.

Jada was both shocked and relieved at the same time. Shocked that she was not aware of that dark time in her daughter's life while also being grateful that more harm was not done. She also shared a story of feeling lost after she lost her best friend 2Pac Shakur.
"I've had a lot of loss. So many of my close friends, gone. Didn't make it to 30, they didn't make it past 25," she said. "A lot of people talk about my relationship with Pac and trying to figure that out. That was a huge loss in my life. Because he was one of those people that I expected to be here. 
My upset is more anger, because I feel that he left me and I know that's not true and it's a very selfish way to think about it, but I really did believe that he was going to be here for the long run. When I think about it, I still get really mad, I get mad at God, I get mat at him, I get mad at everybody."

Jada also revealed she was lost at a point in her life where she felt she was doing everything to make everyone but herself happy.
I love my family, don't get me wrong, but I got lost along the way," she revealed. "I woke up and was like, what makes you happy? And literally had no idea, to the point that I didn't even know how to dress myself again. Are your kids smiling? OK. Is your husband thriving? Good. Everybody else around you thriving? You doing good. One day I woke up and I was withered. Curled up in a ball about to die."

PhotoCredit: Jada Pinkett Smith/Instagram.

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