My home with Lamar was dark and toxic. Khloe Kardashian opens up to Harper Bazaar in new interview about Life, Love, Fashion and relationship.

Khloe Kardashian is opening up yet again on her life, her relationship and fashion in the latest issue of Harper bazaar magazine. she touched on  Lamar Odom and the toxic relationship they had. Excerpts from the interview below.

She was motivated to work on her body and keep fit as many fashion designers and stylist rejected her. They simply told her

"'I just can't work with you'—because I was too big. That always hurt my feelings, of course.""

 About her home with Lamar:

"My home with Lamar was dark and toxic," she says. "At the time, my family didn't know what I was going through. It was the biggest secret I've kept. I just needed a place to go."

After her marriage failed,

She said she couldn't hide out at her mother's house because her mum would have started asking too many questions and she was too scared to find sanctuary at a hotel ("the paparazzi would see me and it would look shady"), so she simply started going to the gym.

Then, slowly, she began to lose weight. Soon after, she sought out the services of personal trainer, Peterson, known for training Jennifer Lopez, Angelina Jolie and Sofia Vergara.

Now, she works out three to five times a week and credits much of her weight loss to a focus on her health, rather than her clothing size.

"I never thought about the number," she says. "When I started seeing that I could lose weight, because I just thought my body would never change, I started taking it more seriously and eating better."

 On her insecurities, she said;

"I like to say I don't care what people say about me, but that's not true.". "Not wanting to go to certain places because I wonder what will be written about me the next day—I hate that I carry that with me."

On Instagram comments

"I think people who say they don't care are lying,". "What's sad is that I can read 10 beautiful comments and then one bad one and I'm like, 'Ugh!'" 

On a brighter note, those stylists who turned her down  are now approaching her and  offering to dress her for events and public appearances. She said:

"I'm just like, 'F— you. I'm not going to reward your bad behavior.'"